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Bob Avey
Bob Avey is the author of two currently unpublished novels,
several short stories, and various treasure-related nonfiction
articles. He lives with his wife and son in Broken Arrow, Oklahoma.
He works as an accountant in the petroleum industry and, when
he's not writing, spends his free time roaming through ghost
towns and Civil War battlefields searching for lost items from
the past. Through his writing, which he describes as a blend
of literary and genre, he explores the intricacies and extremities
of human nature.
Twisted Perception
By Bob K. Avey
Chapter One
Terrence tightened his grip around the steering wheel of the
old Geo Prizm when he saw the place, some bar along Thirty First
Street where he'd found her before, and with a bit of trepidation,
he pulled into the parking lot and shut off the engine. The chore
ahead of him was anything but pleasant, but there was no getting
around it. People ought to stay dead when they're put that way.
On such occasion he thought of
himself as he would, even imagining his name, though not actually
going by it, and not for a moment pretending to assume his presence.
Such an act would be tantamount to disrespect. Something one
should not do against one's own father. In preparation, he pulled
down the sun visor behind which he kept a photograph to remind
him of what she had been, and in so doing he caught a glimpse
of himself in the vanity mirror. It unnerved him to the point
of tears. What he saw was not his image. She was to blame for
that. As if it might gain her attention, or offer insight, he
stroked the surface of the photograph with his thumb, and along
with an array of jumbled thoughts a disturbing memory rolled
through his head.
He'd gone there, the house where
they had come to be, and somewhere in the distance, he'd heard
the sound of breaking glass followed by a bunch of laughter.
Just a pack of kids, delinquents abusing their privilege of freedom
as if it were nothing more than a worn out emotion, cheap and
easily given. They could not be more wrong. He didn't go inside.
He walked around to the backyard where he opened the wrought
iron gate and stepped inside that fenced off area, and stared
at the ground beneath his feet. She'd come back. There was little
doubt in his mind about that, but like a terrified homeowner
creeping through the darkness with a baseball bat to check out
a noise in the night, he was powerless against a pressing need
to go to her and confirm it. It was not a ritual that he cherished.
It scared the hell out of him, and as he kneeled before her,
the moisture from the damp earth drawing into his pant legs,
he began to tremble.
He couldn't understand why she
wanted such a life back, but she always did, and he had no more
than placed the fresh cut roses onto the ground when she screamed,
the shrill sound of her voice stealing from the depths of her
grave as her hands came up from the
ground, like some giant species of plant sprouting forth in high
speed motion, her cold fingers wrapping around his wrists and
clamping shut, dragging him into a cruel reversal of fortune.
"You got to sign in first."
He took a moment to gather himself.
He wasn't always like that, blanking out, losing pieces of time.
But it had been awhile since he'd dealt with the problem. He
just wasn't used to it.
He was inside the bar, staring
at a sweaty man with ugly tattoos who pointed to a sign-in sheet
while holding out a pudgy hand for the cover charge.
The man winked at him. He'd already
begun to hate the guy. He despised ignorant people. They had
a habit of treating him with less respect than he deserved. He
scribbled a name onto the register and paid the greasy troll,
then walked into the bar and selected a seat in the corner where
he could see the stage and not be bothered. The current dancer
held his interest only for a few seconds and out of a blend of
curiosity and boredom, he began to look around the room. What
he saw turned his stomach. It was a shame she'd sunk to such
a shrine of misplaced emotions and dirty desires. He caught the
waitress' attention and ordered a drink, in the bottle, and when
she brought it, he sat back and sipped it.
A few dancers later, he began
to feel the effects of the beer. It was not unpleasant, and he
began to wonder if he'd been wrong, made a mistake. He thought
about leaving, buying a six-pack on the way home and mellowing
out a little further while he sat in bed and watched television.
But she put a stop to all that. He was about to embrace the idea
when she came from behind a curtained doorway along the back
wall. He had not been wrong. She was there all right, and when
she climbed onto the stage it wasn't long until she saw him as
well, her lovely blue eyes piercing the smoky haze as though
they carried their own source of illumination, looking through
him and recognizing the memory of what he was.
A rustling noise accompanied by
a voice broke his concentration. One of the dancers, whose face
held a puzzling expression of hesitation, had come over and was
standing beside his table. He'd known it would happen sooner
or later, and he doubted the bout of tentativeness she appeared
to be experiencing would stop her from carrying out her practiced
charade. Soon, she'd sit down with a forced smile and try to
make conversation, all in an effort to coax an overpriced drink
out of him. It was a no win situation. If he accepted, he might
as well have a stupid sign written across his forehead. If he
refused, she'd make a scene, saying he was only there for a cheap
thrill, to buy a couple of drinks and watch a little free snatch
walk across the stage. He swallowed the rest of his beer then
stuffed a twenty dollar bill into her g-string. It was time to
leave. He'd found what he'd come for, and he had no desire to
soak up any more of the club's impeccable ambiance.
He got up and walked out, keeping
his head down while passing the bouncer. The jerk would be easy.
Pigs like him always were. He pushed through the door and stepped
outside where a light rain had started to fall. He got back in
the car and rolled down the window, letting the cold mist pepper
his face as he breathed in the fresh air.
He didn't have to wait long, and
when she came out, she was alone. He couldn't help but smile.
He did have a bit of luck now and then. Following her wouldn't
be necessary, the parking lot was empty except for the two of
them. He worked his hands into the surgical gloves and picked
up the sock before running his hand through the roll of duct
tape to wear it like a bracelet. The sock, which was lined with
plastic and filled with wet sand, was something new. He opened
the door and stepped quietly onto the asphalt, sliding the white-handled
knife into his back pocket. He didn't intend to use it there,
but he would if he had to. He came up behind her, the six-inch
piece of tape he'd cut earlier already in his left hand. She
was completely unaware of his presence, and he paused as a sweet
scent coming from her hair filled his senses. He
wanted to touch her, to take her in his arms and love her, the
way he had loved her, and it was then that he saw her the way
she was, lying on her bed, wearing only the top half
of her see-through pajamas while she pulled the bed covers back
and shifted ever so slightly to allow him every angle. It was
not unusual. She often stayed that way for awhile after he had
left, even getting up on occasion to walk around the room, stopping
close where he could see her through the cracks in the door.
But it could never be that way for them. They could not co-exist.
That much had been made painfully clear.
He thought about the small room
that had been his prison where the dust particles would dance
in the sun that showed through the broken shade, giving an impression
of substance to the beams, making them appear as though he could
reach out and grab them and move them about. But that, like so
much else, had been nothing more than an illusion. The dust was
not only in the light. It had filled the room. He'd eaten mouthfuls
of it with every breath.
They were casualties of their
own fates, and somehow he thought she understood what he had
to do. He raised the sock, stretching to give it more velocity,
and when he brought it down against the back of her head, he
remembered how the light would catch her pretty necklace as she
walked about the room. It was an enlightening moment, for she
dropped quite readily to her knees, not unconscious, but dazed
to the point of incoherence.
He positioned the pre-cut piece
of tape and pressed it over her mouth, then slid the roll from
his arm and pulled her hands behind her, binding them with several
revolutions. He tore off another piece and put it across her
eyes, then pulled her to her feet. She offered little resistance,
and a delightful urge to take her now ran through him, testing
his resolve, though he pushed the thoughts away and guided her
across the parking lot toward the car. Once there he shoved her
into the back seat.
The lot was still empty. No one had seen.
He started the car and drove out
of the parking lot, heading west on Thirty First Street. Some
distance would be good. When he reached Yale Avenue, he turned
south, driving until he found a suitable location, an old wood
frame house that had lost the fight for survival, giving in to
the pressure of financial ventures that had transformed the once
slightly suburban neighborhood into a mixture of banks, retail
outlets, and, ironically enough, real estate offices. Acting
as a reminder of the house's fate, an industrial trash bin sat
in the front yard, boasting the name of some construction company
on its side. A ridiculous notion. What they were up to was anything
but constructive. He pulled her from the car and walked her to
the front of the house, pausing briefly to check the door. It
wasn't locked. They seldom were.
He pushed her inside and closed
the door, his heart racing with anticipation as he switched on
the flashlight, and in its dim red glow was revealed an old mattress
lying on the floor. Some things were just meant to be. She had
begun to sense her fate, struggling even as he'd pulled her from
the car, and he had no choice but to use the sock again. With
a little help, she fell onto the mattress. Lying beside her,
he removed the tape from her eyes and studied her face, so pretty,
and yet so lined with fear that he hardly recognized it. It had
been cold in that room, a chilling dampness understood only by
those left alone, not for moments, but for eternities in an unforgiving
and infinite darkness.
He would not go back there. She
would die first. He stroked her hair with the back of his hand
and she tried to pull away, but she could not, so she squeezed
her eyes tightly shut, and it was then that he brought the white-handled
knife to her chest where he put his weight into it, shoving it
through her rib cage and into her heart.
With that her lies gave way to
the truth, and for her penance he laid her throat open, cutting
it in the shape of a T. Capital T for Pappa Terrence.
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